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19th October 2014

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Childish Gambino - Telegraph Ave (“Oakland” By Lloyd)

Let’s talk about how absolutely sick and twisted (in the best ways) this video is. First off there’s the fact that the photo of them together had been floating around for weeks now, and even i was on it tough. In our heart of hearts, no matter how much we Gambino girls love our dear Donald, we’s kinda LOVE to see these two together. Their energy seems electric & she’s truly stunning. I mean their regular day together was sweet!

But the sick and twisted ending? EVERYTHING! He ended it with a twist I don’t think anyone saw coming, and much like his “Clapping for the Wrong Reasons” film, this took a crazy Sci-fi turn that made you go “WTF!”, but kept you intrigued.

Needless to say this video kept me happi to know this is the future of my generation.

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18th October 2014

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If you don’t think the best things in life are free, then you totally never hung out with me & this guy! Lol. I had a blast tonight, and although I did do all I wanted I did more than enough. Vegas looks like it’ll be home for a while & I’m learning to have fun with it. Even ran into my boo (not no the guy pictured lol) as I was just headed to the fun. I truly am enjoying myself. even had some deep fried Oreos! 😩🙌 

#Funners #FunTimes #DiscoBunny #FremontStreet  (at Fremont Street)

If you don’t think the best things in life are free, then you totally never hung out with me & this guy! Lol. I had a blast tonight, and although I did do all I wanted I did more than enough. Vegas looks like it’ll be home for a while & I’m learning to have fun with it. Even ran into my boo (not no the guy pictured lol) as I was just headed to the fun. I truly am enjoying myself. even had some deep fried Oreos! 😩🙌

#Funners #FunTimes #DiscoBunny #FremontStreet (at Fremont Street)

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18th October 2014

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Just chillin with Jack as Halloween approaches… Lol. #Jack #NightmareBefore Christmas #Funners #LoveMyLife #FremontStreet (at Fremont Street, Las Vegas)

Just chillin with Jack as Halloween approaches… Lol. #Jack #NightmareBefore Christmas #Funners #LoveMyLife #FremontStreet (at Fremont Street, Las Vegas)

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14th October 2014

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On He Who Shall NOT Be Named…

I once had a love that was so true and deep that I believe he was my real soul mate. He loved me so much he saved me from himself & to this day I still care, think, and dream about him. I truly believed there was never a man who could love me as intensely, or know me as well as he did. Matter of fact I still don’t. There is, however, someone quite close. He actually reminds me of “Mr. Amazing”. If any of you actually have taken the time to get to know my writing, and my story, then you’d know that “Mr. Amazing” was someone quite special to me. Like I said up top, he saved me from himself. Stopped me in my tracks from going down a terrible path he’d inevitably would’ve lead me down… I loved him that much. I was young and it was fun. We’d spend all of our time on the phone with each other somehow.

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That was my life with him. Not even together. No relationship, no sex, not even kissing. Just two connected spirits on a planet together. I think of him now & I almost want to cry, just imagining the way he knew what would make me happi, & cared so much how honest he kept everything with me. His honesty is what won me over. Nothing was off limits. If it hurt my feelings we talked about why, and why I shouldn’t be hurt. We talked about how he felt.. I mean TRULY felt, & everything just was for a while. In this blissful blunder. I knew it’ll end soon. He told me several times it would. When things felt too perfect he’d find a way to mess it up. That was his nature, or at least it was at the time. I wholeheartedly believe people change. I do wish i were in his life to see that change, but for whatever reason now isn’t our time. I give him props though for teaching me so much. It’s taken me a while to see those lessons, but I do now. Especially since I’m falling for someone so similar to “Mr. Amazing”.

The mystery guy in my life now is a hunter just as “Mr. Amazing” was. Always our to get whatever he can under the radar of anyone who may even realizes they’re getting got. This fact of his life scares me now just as it did back then. Smooth talking men are always ones to keep your eyes on, but it’s not just his talking. His moves are honest, and so is his speech. That honesty has once again intrigued me. Sucked me in like a virgin to a vampire. I’ve become a woman up late at night caring for the wrong type of man, again. You’d think a confession such as that would make me turn and run, but it hasn’t. Clearly they also have issues. I’m fucking crazy! We all know it. I’m not that together upstairs sometimes, and as sweet as I try to be when I’m hurt I’M HURT and I let my emotions be known. Choosing these men in my life should be reason enough to proves my insanity. Truth is when it comes to these men, they love that side of me as well, so the latter must be true about them.  large lana

The problem with loving an honest man is the fear that one day he’s going to love you so much he’d fear his own honesty. The fear of one’s own honesty, is right when people start lying to you, to “protect your feelings”, or avoid confrontation. That’s right when an honest man becomes a silent man. Silence sometimes can be worse than the truth or a lie. Silence leads to assumptions, and assumptions are usually almost always wrong. Causing even more danger and war in any type of relationship. Especially for someone like me, and my vivid and very active imagination. Never become silent with me. I swear I’d have you doing the worst things with people & thinking the worst of me, then I’d start to battle myself about how I can try to fall out of love with you, right? It’ll be easy, right? I’d at best lose weight. Next thing ya know…

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This is why honest men intrigue me so.. They let me know how and what it is. There are no characters they’re selling me. Loving this type of man is dangerous I know, but it’s the only love I can’t control. The only one that comes so strong and magnetic is scares me. Trust me when I say I don’t want to love this man. There’s nothing more that scares me than the day his honesty leaves. I think hat’s the most honest thing I’ve ever wrote. Things you’re never supposed to admit, but I guess I just did. It’s the truth. Until then though.. I’ll enjoy the ride.

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On He Who Shall NOT Be Named… was originally published on L.A. Girl Crooked Smile

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10th October 2014

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See that guy? It’s his birthday! He’s my brother & I love him sooooooooo much!!! HAPPI Bday @comrade_hicksonbottom I hope you Hav the most amazing day. I can’t wait to see you at the baby shower next month. 😘😘💚💚😘😉😉😉🎉🎉🎉

See that guy? It’s his birthday! He’s my brother & I love him sooooooooo much!!! HAPPI Bday @comrade_hicksonbottom I hope you Hav the most amazing day. I can’t wait to see you at the baby shower next month. 😘😘💚💚😘😉😉😉🎉🎉🎉

8th October 2014

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On the flowers type & the marrying kind…

Personally, I thought I’ve always been both. Funny thing is at 28 years old I’ve never been married, proposed to once, but never married, & flowers… Never. Not on a birthday, holiday, just because NOTHING!

Now don’t take this as a “woest me” type of post. I’m not complaining about the two by far, but there comes a point where a girl has to take notice that there are things that most women are accustom to, at the very least on holidays, that I’ve never received in my entire life span. It could be the men I choose to spend my time with… What am I saying OF COURSE that’s part of it. A huge part, but I’m thinking bigger picture, it’s also me. I have to acknowledge my role in this mess & admit I’m not proud to admit I’m not the flowers & chocolates girl, BUT I won’t say yet, that I’m not the marrying kind.

Truth is marriage is a huge commitment & I’m glad I didn’t marry any of the guys I’ve known of my past. They weren’t for me & we’ll just leave it all at that. Lol.

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Those stories will come in due time.

Things are amazing in life right now, so those facts of my past won’t be the facts off my furthers. This is just an observation of what my life has been so far. I look forward to what God is bringing forth in my life. Venus shall reign soon enough. Flowers, cards, & candy are nice, but genuine love and happiness are what a goddess truly deserves. And I have a feeling soon enough the flowers will follow.

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On the flowers type & the marrying kind… was originally published on L.A. Girl Crooked Smile

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6th October 2014

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Decided to sleep with conditioner in my hair tonight. I haven’t done this in too long. Showing my mane a lil love tonight & turns out I’m not the only one who’s enjoying my juicy curls tonight. Lol. 😉 

I think I’m going to start doing this once a month to take better care of my mane. Maybe I’ll post more about it too. #NaturalGirl #CurlyGirl #LoveMyMane

Decided to sleep with conditioner in my hair tonight. I haven’t done this in too long. Showing my mane a lil love tonight & turns out I’m not the only one who’s enjoying my juicy curls tonight. Lol. 😉

I think I’m going to start doing this once a month to take better care of my mane. Maybe I’ll post more about it too. #NaturalGirl #CurlyGirl #LoveMyMane

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23rd September 2014

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Happi Tuesday everybody!! Life isn’t perfect & no one in it is, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t exactly where you’re supposed to, or that something GREAT isn’t going to happen today. It is!! You’ve just gotta believe it & understand the small miracles in life. There’s a blessing in all things.. Good or bad. Mistakes are lessons & triumphs. #JustBelieve #LoveMyLife #HappiDays #HaveFaith

Happi Tuesday everybody!! Life isn’t perfect & no one in it is, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t exactly where you’re supposed to, or that something GREAT isn’t going to happen today. It is!! You’ve just gotta believe it & understand the small miracles in life. There’s a blessing in all things.. Good or bad. Mistakes are lessons & triumphs. #JustBelieve #LoveMyLife #HappiDays #HaveFaith

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21st September 2014

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She’s been my lil doll face since the day I met her (and her big bro let me know she’s not a doll lol). I want to give a HUGE shout saying Happi Bday Audi!! Y’all not ready for these natural hair from birth babies. Too cute & more to come. Hope you has loads of fun today baby girl. 😘 #NaturalBaby #PeaceCrew #instacollage

She’s been my lil doll face since the day I met her (and her big bro let me know she’s not a doll lol). I want to give a HUGE shout saying Happi Bday Audi!! Y’all not ready for these natural hair from birth babies. Too cute & more to come. Hope you has loads of fun today baby girl. 😘 #NaturalBaby #PeaceCrew #instacollage

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21st September 2014

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Happi Independence!!! 🎉🎆🎉✌️🌻#BelizeanGyal #PeaceCrew #LoveMyLife

Happi Independence!!! 🎉🎆🎉✌️🌻#BelizeanGyal #PeaceCrew #LoveMyLife

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21st September 2014

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Yesterday I was so busy with everything, that I wasn’t able to be socially accurate in shouting out my baby. Please believe this morning it’s first thing!!! Happi Birthday to the my first love @dabombchell2005!! Auntie loves & misses you my lil hippie natural love goddess! SO auntie’s baby. I hope yourself enjoyed yesterday! #SoHappi #LoveHer #9YearsOld #HippieLife #PeaceCrew #NaturalBaby

Yesterday I was so busy with everything, that I wasn’t able to be socially accurate in shouting out my baby. Please believe this morning it’s first thing!!! Happi Birthday to the my first love @dabombchell2005!! Auntie loves & misses you my lil hippie natural love goddess! SO auntie’s baby. I hope yourself enjoyed yesterday! #SoHappi #LoveHer #9YearsOld #HippieLife #PeaceCrew #NaturalBaby

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18th September 2014

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Y’all ain’t ready 😏

Y’all ain’t ready 😏

18th September 2014

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I’d like to do a #TBT to my #WCW who last month said “I’m straightening my hair” & meant it this time. Lol. She only did it to cut the ends, but she was curious too. After a year of being a heat free girl she straightened & I love it!! That bottom right was in May on Mother’s Day & the rest are a few weeks ago. #LoveMyMommi #NowImCurious

I’d like to do a #TBT to my #WCW who last month said “I’m straightening my hair” & meant it this time. Lol. She only did it to cut the ends, but she was curious too. After a year of being a heat free girl she straightened & I love it!! That bottom right was in May on Mother’s Day & the rest are a few weeks ago. #LoveMyMommi #NowImCurious

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17th September 2014

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First off #StopJudgingMe cause I ain’t all the way unpacked yet. 😂 2nd what type of crazy person comes home, throws on workout clothes & does yoga for 45mins. 🙋 that would be me. Lol. Day 10 of working with no days off. Tomorrow I get paid for basically attending our annual holiday event. #LoveMyLife #Blessings

First off #StopJudgingMe cause I ain’t all the way unpacked yet. 😂 2nd what type of crazy person comes home, throws on workout clothes & does yoga for 45mins. 🙋 that would be me. Lol. Day 10 of working with no days off. Tomorrow I get paid for basically attending our annual holiday event. #LoveMyLife #Blessings

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17th September 2014

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#Blessings

#Blessings

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